There's nothing in the world I would prefer right now than to have someone to snuggle up to. I'm not talking sex, not even anything particularly romantic. I just miss having someone to hold.
Let me make it clear: I don't begrudge any of my married/engaged/involved friends any of their happiness. I think there should be more of it. I look at them, or read their emails or journals, and feel a genuine happiness for them.
I know, however, that that sort of happiness will never be mine. I've made certain decisions in my life that by definition preclude any sort of physical relationship of any kind. Still, I do miss the smell of a woman's perfumed hair, the warmth of a soft and tender embrace, and the slight weight of a woman's body in my arms.
Well, even if I know I will never have that feeling again, I can dream. There's no sin in that, I think.