Well, I've been backsliding lately, particularly for the past week or so. I've been scrounging through the cupboard for anything that's quick and easy, usually something high in fats, sugar, and carbs. I've also been eating regardless of whether or not I'm actually hungry. For example, I had a big, BIG platter of angel hair pasta with sauce for dinner tonight, probably enough for two or three people. Not 15 minutes later, I followed it up with a chocolate-coated granola bar. I didn't need it, I didn't even particularly want it; it's the same old story of eating out of boredom that made me pork up over the last few years in the first place
I think I know the reason why. After several weeks of being out and about with friends and family, I've settled back into my solitary life at home. For various reasons, I haven't been going to the gym as often as I had been, maybe once or twice a week instead of the almost-every-night pattern I was enjoying. I'm starting to let the loneliness of this place get to me.
The thing is, I'm not really lonely. I've formed a great friendship with a few people (some from LJ, another from church) and I'm usually chatting to one or the other of them every night. I really enjoy spending time with them online. However, chatting online isn't the same as having them sitting next to you, and as close to them as I feel, they are far away, and it makes face-to-face contact all but impossible. The longing desire to be with them just makes the emptiness of my home that much more poignant.
I'm going to finish this, then I'm changing clothes and going to the gym. Maybe an hour or so on the treadmill will get those endorphins flowing, work off the mondo dinner I scarfed down, and break this chain before it becomes an anchor dragging me down.
UPDATE: Came back from the gym about a half-hour ago. There's nothing like a good, hard, gut-busting workout to revitalize a body. Add in a 8 mile walk tomorrow, and I should be back on track with my exercise plan.
Also, a quick survey of my cupboard and fridge shows that I've gotten rid of nearly all of the junk food. All that's left is 2 granola bars and 1 packet of butterscotch krimpets, which I'm hoarding like they were gold bars until I can get some more. I guess an empty pantry is the best way to avoid temptation.