It made me realize that I have been taking life entirely too seriously. I have been so worried about the day-to-day routine and the constant and unsatisfied drive for MORE (more money, more stuff, more time, etc) that I have forgotten to just slow down and take things as they come. That doesn't mean that I am going to drop everything, quit my job, by a classic muscle car, and start partying. I AM, however, going to start taking care of myself. I don't want to be selfish, but maybe a little selfishness wouldn't be so bad. I shouldn't be afraid to do things (or not do things) becuase that is what I want, not becuase I am following the crowd.
Just to reassure KAT, this is not my midlife crisis. This is just a little self-assertion, trying to be happy with the person I am now instead of pining for the person I was.